Sunday, November 30, 2003



Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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LOL man. ok tt's enough for today. im making a fool of meself.
My inner child is ten years old today

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost in a good book, or giggling with my best friend, I live in a world apart, one full of adventure and wonder and other stuff adults don't understand.

really bo liao online. so sorry.
solitary
Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The Alone. "When I wake up alone, the shades are still drawn on the cold window pane so they cast their lines on my bed and lines on my face." The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness, melancholy, and patience. It is governed by the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword, or Unrequited Love. As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so much love to give, but thing just never seem to work out the way you want them to. In life, you can be very optomistic, even when things are gray and nothing works out to your expectations.
Artistic
You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.

wowwee.
had a very productive sunday sch lesson today. talked abt sin, that pple 'sin cos sin sins'; and 'sin even though they consciously know its wrong' and thus leading to guilt. was thought provoking. Romans 6,7. learnt lots.. anyway, went to town to shop with janice today. realised tt i really miss godma's company alot! its been a really long time since i went out with her man. had a great time! tml going class chalet. gonna go kayaking w joyceT and Raelo and Ronggay! yeah man!! happied :) duno if e chalet will be fun anyway. face skin peeling. shit man, tml if i get tanned den that's it man. my tan will be patchy on my face!!! k. stop. i dont wanna do anything, yet my brain needs to do sth functional. i wanna go out, yet i dont know where to go and i have few pple i wanna go out with and they are not available at e mo. yawn. yf camp's coming!! woohoo.
[[sorry. im really sorry. im not worthy of ur love. but im making amends. promise.]]

Saturday, November 29, 2003

DisorderRating
Paranoid:Low
Schizoid:Low
Schizotypal:Low
Antisocial:Low
Borderline:Low
Histrionic:Moderate
Narcissistic:Moderate
Avoidant:Low
Dependent:Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:Moderate

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::see? i aint no dysfunk. :D
BEST SECTION
was abit mad today.... guess im just too happy to see e band and the band room. perc has gotten like new bells, xylo and gong after us seniors left. sigh guess we shuldve gone sooner eh? haha! anyway i'll reeealllyyy miss my juniors... for the performance, they did a very typical perc thingie, using plastic hollow sticks from duno where and using them to play rhythms, a last minute thingie thought out in 2 hrs. they won 2nd runner-up. e flutes won. e rest of the skits etc were abit lame haha but ok lah. give them a break. who cares if abt e performance?? WE WON BEST SECTION!!! first time in band history PERCUSSION gets best section. Im soooooo proud of them!!! and myself. haha ok lah but i didnt really do much to change perc. but im really, really, glad. saw my ex, he's in e army. yuck man. his new hairstyle sucks man, looks like some xiao wan zi thing. and like practically NO ONE from my section chup him (he was our section senior) and i heard him saying to crys tt 'he feels like an outsider'. HA. good he knows tt. my skin is better than his now! HA. anyway i went to meet janice for dinner. e stupid bus brought me all over Singapore before bringing me to ang mo kio. damn e stupid bus driver, when i asked him if it went to amk, he said 'you, dang ran you!' in such a hearty way. it shuldve been 'you, bu jiu lah, zhuo da gai yi xiao shi jiu dao liao, hen kuai de, bu hui jiu!' translation: 'yes, not long, sit ard one hour den reach, not long one!' my foot. y didnt he be honest and tell me tt it'd be a butt-breaking journey?! i went past sentosa, chinatown, city hall, novena AND macritchie. luckily there was a soccer match, myanmar vs singapore on teevee mobile. i couldve died. this old man with a hairy chest, loud shirt AND alcohol-smelling breath sat beside me. freaked out. was so scared he'd try to..argh. nvm lor. then when i came home, e empty seat i took had this guy with stunted growth sitting beside it. nvm oso leh. but he kept turning his head to stare at me. argh. freak out. super relieved when my stop came. had a good dinner with godmama! talked lots, though e stupid bus ride meant that i couldnt stay out long. sigh. tml im going out w her again! going town to s.h.o.p. yeah man!
damn im late. supposed to b there at 12!! shit shit shit. im outta here.
hor(ror)-lee-dæs
Pls pray for the Thailand mission trippers:
1. journey mercy.
2. everything will go smoothly.
3. for the Holy Spirit to be with the mission trippers.
4. the pple there will open their hearts to receive God's word.

sighh. im stuck in this country, bored to tears. here's my 'schedule' for the coming week:
Sun: Going out with godma
Mon: zilch
tues: zilch
wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun: zilch.
Mon: going out w dor.

ok lah, not exactly zilch all e way.. maybe abit of camp preparations here n there. still, sian. woke at 9am initially, but kor's bed was way too comfy, so i turned on L`arc~en~ciel on e mini hi-fi and dozed off after Pieces. woke at 12pm~! wahahaha! accomplishment! -.-' ok. wiping off my nail polish. everytime i get rid of one, my heart feels the pinch of $1.40. heh. i look bare all of a sudden, but i dont wanna look like a freak with nail polish in sandals. gonna see my band jrs lata! ord party. duno how it'll be..kinda bittersweet ya, to watch ur jrs perform zai-ly for u..while previously u have been the zai-er ones up there always, guiding them for 4 yrs etc. go percussion freaks!! swimming later, with my aching muscles. maybe i'll drown today. these 11 days will do lots of good for us. i hope.

[[let go. aint easy, but i'll learn to let go.]]

Friday, November 28, 2003

nerdslut


assistedsuicide
You're goin' down! FOR
ASSISTED SUICIDE! (even though it was good you did it)

ha.ha.ha. what is this man. im bored la sorry.
ouch
aching all over! sigh. price to pay for fun man. why everytime lidat..feel old already. heh. slept in my bro's room..damn wat a comfy bed he has! one person with a queen size bed. bleah. good thing he's away in OBS for 9 daaaays. sunlight burning my burnt face woke me up. today mission trippers going to thailand. sigh. had a sleep packed with weird dreams. guess i will go church to help out with their stuff and send them off. im gonna be freaking bored without godpa ard. luckily godma's still in singapore, but she's working argh. maybe i shuld just pack myself into a luggage and sneak myself there. i hate singapore for 1 thing.. its absolutely b.o.r.i.n.g. why do pple at my age have no life? or maybe its just me.
[[it hurts me to see u like that. but its gonna be over soon. hang in there. praying for you.]]

Thursday, November 27, 2003

why-eff
super burnt from today. funny though cos there was not much sun! but thank God for the good weather. not too hot, not raining. yeah man. it went quite well, but e guys were a lil rough. e girls....sigh e only pple who played all e games were like me melissa tan and melissa lim. rose played till lunch only, den she went to meet her friends. captain's ball, dog and bone, soccer, poison ball, freeze and melt.. wah, was damn shagged man! doreen fell ontop of me, scraped my knee. ;[ but heck, i had a great time man! fengyi and dor were e ones who were in charge, credit shuld go to them ;] went back to church, met pa and went to pak pool. he's going thailand tml....along w dor n rose. will miss them lots man. sigh. better sign up for my 3 mth course tml.. i can only enter 5 jcs. they are: Pioneer, Jurong, Catholic, Serangoon and Yishun. have put them in e respective order i want. cjc srjc n yjc are kinda out of the way, which leaves pjc or jjc. BUT. i dont wanna jjc cos ive ENOUGH of nan hua pple thank you very much. jjc's a mini nanhua man. bth. but from my batch onwards, i guess it wont b anymore. sighhhhhhhhh. I WANNA GO THAILAND. ARGH!!

[dont let me close one more door i dont wanna hurt anymore stay in my arms if you dare must i imagine you there dont walk away from me i have nothing nothing nothing if i dont have you..]

Wednesday, November 26, 2003

brain
Conscious self
Overall self
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Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||| 47%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||||| 62%
Type 3 Ambition |||||||||||||| 58%
Type 4 Sensitivity |||||||||| 38%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||| 48%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||| 35%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||| 77%
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[disclaimer: decide me for yourself. ]
emotions
It's over and done but the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to instead of me tonight?
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that's taken me over
Tied up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
You know that there'll be nobody left in this world to hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight
Goodnight

I'm there at your side, I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that's taken me over
Tied up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
You know that there'll be nobody left in this world to hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight

[[i will live with it. its just something out of reach. but im torn.]]
soundless tears
accompanied doreen together w bear for her acupuncture. poor girl's old back injury's bak.. pray for her recovery! aft tt pak pool w bear. still quite ok, havent lost much of my touch, just tt my arms tire out easily now. sigh. glad i could go out and keep my mind off things. tml's west coast. dom, pa not goin, which means tt no adult youth helpers present. oso good, let us try taking over for once w/o them ya. they're going thailand on friday..i really really regret not going man. ARGH!
turmoil
gen ben jiu shi kan bu dao ting bu dao bu zhi dao zhe yang cai hao xing li sui shi fang xia le da kuai shi tou dan xing li bu liao gan je shi fen nan shou zhe teng tong rang wo nao zi yi pian kong hu ran si shi zhe me xiong yong xian zai bu ting de xuan zhuan xing li ye jiu hao luan hao luan wu sheng lei zhen de hao du ye hao lei shuo dao di shi zhong dui shui ye bu dui..

mind's in a whirl. a stone has been lifted, yet i feel my heart falling. i suck.
socceroo
inter lost to arsenal 5-1. i watched till e 65 min, den bth hadta koon. at tt time score was 2-1, my bro said tt e last 3 goals were scored in 10 mins. ;[ Arse-nal's at e bottom of their grp, Inter's at e top. so aft this, i duno how but Inter shuld still have a high chance of entering e next rd. their defence started to leak after half-time..sigh. just thinking of what to do today makes me wanna puke.

Tuesday, November 25, 2003

Hyde's e same height as ME?! OMG. and he's MARRIED. i feel e left side of my chest shatter.
Ah. beautiful song.

PIECES
by L'Arc~en~Ciel

Nakanai de nakanai de taisetsu na hitomi yo
Kanashisa ni tsumazuitemo shinjitsu wo mite ite ne
Sono mama no anata de ite
--
Don't cry, don't cry, precious eyes
Even if you fall from sorrow, keep watching the truth
Stay just the way you are

Daisuki na sono egao kumorasete gomen ne
Inottemo toki no nagare hayasugite tooku made
Nagasareta kara modorenakute
--
I'm sorry to make that beautiful smile I love so much blur
Even if I pray, the flow of time is too fast
I was washed so far away, I can't turn back

Ah odayaka na kagayaki ni irodorare
Saigetsu wa yoru wo yume ni kaeru mitai dakara me wo korashite sa!
--
Ah painted with warm light
Time turns night into dreams, so look closly...see!

Anata no sugu soba ni mata atarashii hana ga umarete
Komorebi no naka de azayaka ni yureteru
--
A new flower blooms by you again
In the light from the trees sways vividly

Itsumademo mimamotte agetai kedo mou daijoubu
Yasashii sono te wo motteru hito ga iru kara kao wo agete
--
I want to protect you for eternity, but you'll be OK
There is someone who is holding your kind hand, so look up

Ne tooi hi ni koi wo shita ano hito mo
Uraraka na kono kisetsu Aisuru hito to ima
kanjiteru kana?
--
Hey, is that person whom we loved long ago
Feeling this lazy season with their lover too?

Ah watashi no kakera yo chikara-zuyoku habataite yuke
furikaeranai de hiroi umi wo koete
Takusan no hikari ga itsu no hi ni mo arimasu you ni
Anata ga iru kara kono inochi wa eien ni tsuzuite yuku
--
Ah my pieces, fly into the sky with strength
Don't look back, fly over the oceans
Praying that many lights will shine every day
Because you you, this life will continue for eternity

Ah ryoute ni afuresou na omoide-tacih karenai you ni
Yukkuri ashita wo tazunete yuku kara
Ah watashi no kakera yo chikara-zuyoku habataite yuke
furikaeranai de hiroi umi wo koete
--
Ah so the overflowing memories in both hands won't wilt
I will slowly visit tomorrow
my pieces, fly into the sky with strength
Don't look back, fly over the oceans
Hyde
Alas... if only you'd seen the video to
"Pieces", this might have been
prevented. Poor thing. You think music videos
are all fake, don't you?


Which member of L'arc~en~ciel would kill you in your sleep?
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--* WHO SAID I NV WATCHED PIECES?! hmph. e vee-dee-O's surprisingly meaningless, sad to say ;[ but HYDE! Hyde, for goodness sake! go on, stab me! i dont mind Hyde stabbing me! i'll get to see him! and sing Pieces (which happens to be my FAVE Larcenciel song) with him!! tt is b4 he stabs me, anyway. =D*--
weirdness.
i feel rather weird nowadays. duno. its a not-very-nice-feeling.. like im about to get myself into sth. argh. nvm. check out e L`Arc~en~ciel webbie ive added to e links! Way cool. been a long time since i listened to their CD.. i miss Hyde's voice!! watched 3/4 of e japanese singing 'competition' on tv. most of them cant sing live man. too bad mom asked me to switch off e tv b4 smap came on. wanna hear how 'good' they r. more like see takuya =p e ONLY ones who could make it were Gackt(!) and Da Pump(!) mannnn. Gackt's voice is HEAVENLY. his eyes are sooo beautiful..he looks kinda ethereal man. he rocks! damn. y aint i japanese. really admire japanese-es who CAN sing, and e bands which are made up of damn zai guitarists,bassists, keyboardists and drummers. goodness. i wanna be like them! but wat am i gonna do? break strings, keys, sticks or croak? ;[ couldnt catch ayumi too, but man go listen to her live version of Evolution. she zao sia 90% of e time! gross. most femme jpop singers SQUEAK. seriously. no matter how 'deep' or sexy their voices can go, when they hit e high notes, they really HIT them. shatter. ouch my poor eardrums.
wanna hear me sing, anyone? or should i just shut my trap.
revolt-lutions
couldnt really sleep last night, tossed and turned abit. but fell asleep eventually at ard 2am. woke damn early for someone having hols (7.30am), and here i am. is this going to be my life for e whole hols? grr. i think this blog will be full of my stinking complaints of boring holidays.
something i dread's happened. now, someone's name just leaves a disgusting taste in my mouth i cant seem to get rid of whenever i mention it. cant tt person be abit more auto and haul butt? its disgusting to see someone so 'mature' dramatizing as tho tt person's parents have effeted all their painstakingly earned money grooming a person into nugatory shit. or is tt person indubitably dumb? interest? i dont see no verbose. stop gei-ing. one word-grotesque. de facto.
i wanna swear. let me: ' Vitagen!!! Syphillis!! Pinkblock! ' my mouth feels foul'd.

Monday, November 24, 2003

http://www.crushcalculator.com/cc.cgi?id=1069725113mhd ..its pretty accurate. go figure.

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget

if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

-- touched me pretty hard. do the pple i love know i love them? i may seem a person full of words, but im not really good at expressing my deepest. im rather stonish actually, cos i dont usually show my true emotions. sigh. but i hope the pple i love know i love them.
singspiration
led singspiration yest. was abit screwed cos of e keyboards (qiheng apparently forgot some chords and intros) but haha he did a pretty good job along w nicholas at e guitar. was rather amateurish, but at least did better (i hope) than my bro last week :] started off well, but my godpa had to turn up!! goodness. he walked past, i penged immediately. worst he walked into e room and stood at e back for e rest of e singspiration! started to spout abit of rubbish. the pressure man. he's a pretty experienced song leader, so as his daughter i had to b good! u reading this, pa? haha anyway i had no choice but to open my gold-filled mouth to SING. which i have always dread doing so infront of most others. hope i dint zao sia man. pa said it wasnt so bad just tt i had to take my hand out of my pocket and act pro. haha thank God anyway, cos i guess He gave me e guts to sing, which i wouldnt dare have previously man. oh well. alright lah i admit it was fun. it was my 2nd time, give me some credit pls. =|
sianness

arghh. slept the day away. collected e fotos..hmm. ok, they're quite alright. look abit funny tho. cos i guess my smile was plastered all over my face, and i looked almost e same in every pic. hah. mom gave lotsa comments on e guys who put their hands on my waist. no comment. am REALLY REALLY BORED. save me.
School hols? doesnt sound very appealing to me now. its really a total waste of time. im e sort who cant sit ard and do nothing.. i will either eat, sleep, or play. so tt means i will put on weight! no lah but its really getting very boring. seriously. no one jio me go out, my social circle is small (i aint really close to many pple and i dont really wanna be.), i dont really feel like going out, nowhere nice to go either. siaaan. ha. whoever thought i was a social buttah-fly, you're so wrong. im boring! LOL kinda wish i was studying for exams, but not taking exams [madness] but tt beats nothing to do. Work? im kinda full of activities on my calendar but when ive no activities, ive absolutely NOTHING to do. godpa and godma AND godsis are all out of town. lonely little me. haha. going to collect grad nite fotos in half an hour. cant wait man.

Saturday, November 22, 2003

Grad nite was....soso. not v fun. quite idiotic actually. e nerds were so zi4 ji3! dey were almost e ONLY on pple. i guess. b4 e party went to town, waited for like 1 hr for e rest. sucks man. come already still ran upstairs w/o me, nv say sorry somemore! nvm. went to e salon they were in. coincidentally it was run by graduated-2yrs-ago friend daniel's parents!haha while i was putting on my make up i thought he looked familiar when he walked past me,but tot tt he was just another gay hairdresser (no offense). den he called my name. heh saw him on tuesday only.. chatted quite abit while waiting for e rest. mui looked as though she was going to get married man. at one point of e party she and jac left to go home to bathe-cos dey didnt wanna spoil their rebonded hair. den y do it in e first place brainless idiots. -.-
took lotsa fotos! :)) saw ming talking to e crow. though i dont like him anymore,was abit sianed when i saw him talking to her. anyway. went to boat quay. but it rained man..and my heels were killing my feet, so i decided to go home. saw 'chen xiao chun' at hotstuff, guess he was rather surprised to see me cos we keep running into each other. heh anyway. had a better time after e party. forgot to bring my keys! hadta call home..risking a big scolding for reaching home at 6am. tt's e latest-or shuld i say earliest- time ive ever went home man. woke up this morn at 8.30am, funny y i couldnt sleep. watched cartoons (spongebob squarepants!!) den went back to koon. yawns. its so boring online.

Friday, November 21, 2003

its O.V.E.R !!!!!! wOoOoo~~!!!! Freeedom at last man. A very BIG THANK YOU to those who have supported me throughout my exams and have been keeping me in ur prayers.. Thank God SO much for guiding me and making me study so hard for the first time in my life. even if my results aint satisfactory, im already happy tt i even managed to study. ha anyways tonight's Grad Nite. goin to collect my contacts b4 goin 2 orchard 2 meet my grp. argh i dowan go down one....idiot sia they all. seriously, i dont miss e sch at all man. all i miss is Band, and a scattered no. of peeps. took photos w e Sec 5 guys im better with, haha had lotsa fun man. took one w ming too! heh~ tonite's YF Bbq too...hope it'll go well. too bad im gonna miss all e fun there..but they'll miss me! wahaha :))

Thursday, November 20, 2003

copied this from my bro's blog who copied it from a friend's blog. chew on it.

>> It's not the fault of the student if he fails, because the year has
ONLY 365' days.

Typical academic year for a student.

1. Sundays-52,Sundays in a year, you know Sundays are for rest.
days left 313.

2. Summer holidays-50 where weather is very hot and difficult to
study. days left 263.

3. 8 hours daily sleep-means 130 days.
days left 141.

4. 1 hour for daily playing-(good for health) means 15 days.
days left 126.

5. 2 hours daily for food & other delicacies(chew properly &
eat)-means 30days. days left 96.

6. 1 hour for talking (man is a social animal)-means 15 days
days left 81.

7. Exam days per year atleast 35 days.
days left 46.

8. Quarterly, Half yearly and festival (holidays)-40 days.Balance 6
days.

9. For sickness atleast 3 days. remaining days 3.

10. Movies and functions atleast 2 days. 1 day left.

11. That 1 day is your birthday. "How can you study at that day?"
Balance days 0

"How can a student pass ?????"
papers werent too bad, thank God!! blew some $70 in 2 days.....may nt seem much, but to me, it IS man. did a pedi, french mani, bought stuff, all tt prep for grad nite tml.! argh. rather spend e $$ on more clothes though. kinda killed 2 nails, and i was desprately trying to salvage it. doesnt look as nice..sigh anyway tml's gonna b damn hectic for me. somemore after e party going to mohamed sultan chiong? i duno if im going man. dun feel lyk. who else asked me to go man.. i tink i will be damn shag on sat, and sat's gonna be a loooong day for me too! so i'll see if i wanna go and breathe in all e smoke smog and what not.

Monday, November 17, 2003

No matter how freaked i am w blogger..just cant help putting in an entry. true,,some pple just put personal stuff on their blogs and when others tease/ask them abt it, they feel....intruded? yawn.

Lesson.1: only put stuff u want pple to see.
Lesson.2: things u see maynt be true. [read:lesson.1] its kinda lyk sms eh, miscommunication may arise cos its sorta one sided.
Lesson.3: boring blogs are turn offs..dont talk abt morning wake up brush teeth etc. every english teacher will balk at that. its a NONO.
Lesson.4: if u disagree w e above lessons, DONT BLOG.

am i contradicting moiself? bleah.

[4 days to FREEDOM!!
whoooppee! ]
fell sick yest. today, still sick. shivered e whole nacht tho i had like 2 layers of clothes on and a blanket. culdnt slp man. and tml's my chem paper! headache,all time high of 38.3º and i think im gonna get brain damage. temp now's still at 38.1, doc said im h.e.a.t.y.....argh. but i drank LOTS of water everyday! havnt studied chem properly..had a notion i kenna dengue feva, and boy was i scared i aint allowed 2 take my paper tml. praying damn hard for my recovery...pray for me pls!!!

Sunday, November 09, 2003

damn. been slacking too much. thought tt ive like 1 wk to prepare for my next paper, but i still have other papers. seemed to have lost e discipline to study again. cant concentrate properly..keep running here and dere. walked home in e heavy rain today, enjoying e rain soaking me slowly while reflecting on myself, thinking abt stuff i'd done. there's so much i gotta improve on myself. registration for yf camp is goin well. but its kinda like a camp for kids organised by the yf cos e older peeps will be doin most of e coordinating and manpower is needed to look after e kids. ha, im not old myself lah ok. but pastor wesley's really doing lotsa stuff, credit to him. really pray tt everything will go well. den we can have a retreat for the
Junior college
University
Military
Poly

For Christ
!
:>


[[part of me feels missing.]]

Thursday, November 06, 2003

not overly depressed by Os so far, yet not very optimistic. all i can say is tt i wont do badly, neither will i do superbly well. i guess. dreamt last nite tt i failed my english compo cos i wrote out of point, and e marker was laughing in my face at the zero and red marks all over my compo. argh, makes me even more freaked abt this whole exam. many of them find Os a breeze so far. but really dont know how well-or badly- i will do........ anyway, only 4 papers left! thank God for pulling me through man. O levels aint as difficult as i'd thought:
Emaths paper1: at most, -15pts
paper2: at most -20pts verdick: A2?[being optimistik.]
English paper1: was ok. had inspiration, tho im nt sure how well it wuld go down w zee marker -_-'
paper2: quite easy. shuldnt b a prob.
Social studies: singa-propaganda force fed into e mouths of pathetic, unsuspecting, mindless 15-16 year old singaporean kiddies and regurgitated during O levels for e sake of some 'future'. prediciton: wont fail finally.
English Literature: Not at my usual standard, yet not too bad i guess.

i got e fone. finally my thumbs can be saved from impending arthritis.
[ O levels p.e.n.d.i.n.g .....]